I wake up to My mom's cries, she remembers her time is numbered, its a weak moment for her, so I stay there and be strong for her, I tell her its ok, and not to think about any of that, just think of now, know that we'll always be here whenever and we always love her.
I don't know if its a horrible thing to do, but I have kinda started on her eulogy, only because it helps me with knowing I'm going to lose her, I was a bit more afraid of losing her earlier because of feeling like I wouldn't mean anything to anyone else, but I know different now, and that helps me.
I cried tonight, I wipe back my tears again before I fall back to sleep I talk to god as well, ask him to help me through this, I yell at times too, why is her fate so cruel? We cant change fate, we can only accept it and move on, I'll try. sometimes its all so hard alone though.
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