Rejected

well,I feel like shit, I asked out nelly today, and she politely told me she wasn't interested, I blew it off at first, but like I do always, I just kept prying, and I asked her to tell me the truth of why she wouldn't go out with me.She told me it was because I'm too immature, she said when I first told her how old I was she was shocked, she was sure I was 20 or 21, not 27 going on 28.

She then went on to tell me more on how I carry myself, and that I don't seem like a man and more like a boy, ouch did that hurt, I accepted that and moved passed it today, am I too immature?Do I need to do some growing? Maybe, I don't know, I feel like if I change some of the things she finds immature about me I'm not going to be the same person anymore, not that I would change for her but for myself, but is it something that would make things better in my life?

Times like these I miss her, I could be all immature and silly like that with EL, that was probably the best thing I loved about her, was the fact we both were silly and immature and we had fun being that way with one another. I wonder if I can call her and just be all silly with her again without getting emotionally attached to the situation. I do miss those fun silly talks we had, like the time we sang on the phone with our tone deaf selves haha.

Then again I need to move on, but does that mean changing myself too?