Yea so I haven't heard back since my date last week. I guess I was just something to pass the time. As my friend told me she didn't seem all that interested in me anymore. My luck in romance strikes again. What the fuck am I doing wrong? I thought it went well, I didn't speak about myself the whole night, and we had fun.
I guess I'm not the person she thought I would be I guess.
I don't get how people do this stuff, I'm sick of getting run over in these situations, I don't know what to do anymore. Maybe I should give up. Sometimes I wonder, maybe it's just destiny for me to be alone. I've been alone a lot my adult life. With brief moments of romance here and there. one sorta big one in 2009 with a girl who is now basically nuts and everytime she see's me she has to basically treat me like shit.And she's the one who left me. And of course the real big one which was almost two years ago now.
Sometimes I think I over romanticized that relationship. A few of my friends think that's the case as well. I did feel I was in love though, but whatever that's in the past and will stay there.For now I'll just stay on my own and do whatever. I think I'm done actually trying and just wait to see if anything ever just happens to me rather than trying to force it to come again.
Meh whatever I guess. I feel like an idiot.
