I want to let go, You don't think I'm trying? Because I am. You told me once my pride got in the way of stuff, and its getting in my way again now, I'm jealous, I'm jealous that you've fallen in love again and have moved on, and everything seems to be falling into place for you, while I'm scraping by.

 Do you know how it feels when you feel like you don't matter to someone? when you put everything, your heart and soul and it feels like they didn't even take a second look? Is it so hard to say hi every now and then? Why is it you feel its a nightmare being my friend? you don't even talk to me!

I don't hate you, I hate what you have, you know why, and yes I need to get over it, but its only been 3 weeks, so things are still raw, You've changed my whole perception on things, its taking me a while to really come to terms with it.

That's no excuse,nor am I giving any, Your intentions are never entirely clear, because you are not always entirely clear on what you want.