It Hurts...

I don't know what to do, I can't stop crying and shaking, I've lost the only woman I've ever fallen in love with, I had my chance,and I let it slip by me I told her I missed her, but I never told her how much, I can't stop loving her, even though she hates me now, god it hurts every time she says it, I've never had the shakes like this before.

She says she hates me, and It hurts so much, but I think back to when she told me no matter what she says or what happens she will always love me, I know she still means it, no matter how mad she is at me. I know it deep down in my heart of hearts, God why must I be so bad at this? Why Can't I have seen her waiting?

I would give anything to be with her,ANYTHING.This hurts so much, feels like she ripped my heart out again, but this time she actually meant it and is enjoying it, before it was due to circumstance, now its due to my pride, and my hesitance, I wanted her back last Thursday when we talked,But she told me that's not what she wanted, so I stepped back - that was the biggest mistake I have made in my life.


I can't make any excuse and the 1000th apology isn't going to change what I did, I just wish you'd give me a second chance babe, you mean too much to me to not fight for, its never too late to fight for what you love, I promise I will always be here, my eyes are open, my mouth is closed, my ears are here to listen.


I'll never give up,ever,this hurts so much, but I won't give up on us, even if you hate me more. I can't my love wont allow it to I don't care if you tell me not to invest in you, I can't stop my heart.