today shaped up to be pretty well, all be it I told someone I was in fact fine with what had happen when I seriously wasn't I hope she doesn't read this anymore, as I wouldn't want her to feel bad about it as I know her regretting doing it had to do a bit with hurting me or herself.
I'm fine with where we are now, I may have some hiccups like today playing her again brought back memories of when I first met her and how much fun I was having getting my ass kicked in a game. I seen her picture and once again I found myself staring into her eyes as if she was staring back at me,Telling me how much she loves me and always will.
I have to fight my urge to tell her. I cannot be selfish when she needs to be happy on her own, my feelings sprouting back again may cause a pause in that, and also may cause her to keep her distance from me, which I pray never happens.
I took her picture that I seen today, and saved it, whenever I feel like I miss her or need to say something that I know I shouldn't or can't say to her, I tell it to this picture I let out everything I feel,It's not here as my crutch, because I need her in that way. Its here to remind me of what love is, and what it feels like, and what it looks like to me, whenever I feel sad, I just look there to warm my heart.
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