Boliing pot of anger

Sometimes my anger gets the best of me and it scares me at times. I got irritated at my radio because it wouldn't work, and I took it upon myself to punch it as hard as I can, causing my hand to bleed and I just think to myself "what am I doing?" I calm down and look at the situation and realize this isn't the right way to go about things.

This hasn't been the first time I've done this, since everything that has happen this year, my anger sometimes gets the best of me, just a month ago I lost it from everything going down with my mother my ex and my father and I just rammed my head as hard as I could into my patio door,Probably the stupidest thing I've done all year long.

My family doesn't have a good track record with dealing with problems, my middle sister we found out recently was cutting herself, and even tried to commit suicide, I don't think I'll get that far, but I need to talk more about my problems and worries instead of bottling them up and taking them out on myself and my house.

I know punching things won't fix my radio,or stop my dad from being a drug addict, or get rid of my mother's cancer, so doing any of this is really just making things worse, but I feel so much anger and frustration built up that its hard to find a way to disperse it. I have to try though, for those people in my life who try to help me with this.

They have been great at listening to me and helping me through, but I don't repay them like I should because I keep hurting myself, and for that,Tyler, Miguel, Lisa, Michael and the rest, I'm sorry and I owe you all more than that for sticking by me and helping me through some bad situations.