I took a walk, and thought about everything, I can't stop loving her, that's something I can't turn off, what I can do, is start loving myself again, I felt so angry and mad at myself for losing her, but that's not going to help anything, I'm going to try my best to love myself and be happy again by myself. I've always been happy by myself, I loved it, now I just have to fall in love with myself all over again. Its not going to be easy, but I have to try for everyone who cares about me and is looking at me to get through this.
I'm sorry if I'm not acting right, I love you and hope you stay happy, I'm glad you loved my sonnet, and I'm glad I was able to meet and fall in love with you, I will never forget it or the good times we had. I wish I could say I won't wait for you anymore, but I can't promise that, I'm not going to wait around on hand and knee's waiting till this relationship falls apart, but just know that deep down in my heart I still have faith in us for one day.
I'm not clinging to the notion, but its just something I don't think I can rid myself of, to me even though each time was during bad timing I still feel like what we had\will have is something worth going through so much for, maybe you'll see that one day, maybe you won't but its fine by me, I'll make my own path.
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