why can't I just be happy? why is it every time I feel like I am,its taken from me, its not fair, I fucking hate this, I hate all of it, I can't stop crying I can't stop feeling like shit! why! This isn't me I hate this person I wish he were dead. People keep telling me to change if I don't like this, its not that fucking simple, I can't just close my eyes and open them and viola I'm all better.
I might write 1000 times on this blog before the day is over, will anyone read it? I don't know, maybe you will, or won't not now, not how I am around you or period, I feel like a shell of me, I can't eat, I can't think straight I don't want to do anything.
how could you just fall in love with someone else and not even give me a proper chance? Why? Was I that fucking horrible? Is he that good? I hope he makes you happy, one of us deserve to be.
I don't like feeling bad for myself I fucking hate this, what do I do? how do I move on from this? I don't even want to, I love you so much, I know you love me, but you're not in love with me anymore, god I hate hearing that it hurts so much, I have to let go,I have to let go, let go jr, fucking let go.....
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