I can't even begin to describe how bad things are getting with my mom, its almost time, she doesn't do much but sleep most of the day, she can barely swallow, she barely makes any sense, fucking shit,I've been good all day and haven't cried, but now I am fucking shit fucking shit I feel so bad that I just want this to be through with.



I can't take this much more,  the stuff today was......I can't even put in words.


I failed to mention the fact I have to babysit my father from drinking, he was supposed to be over here to help,but all he's fucking doing is drinking....Its partially my fault.I should've never let him buy me beer yesterday, thought it would help loosen me out from all of this....