More of the same

I forgot I had this, I haven't said anything in a while, things haven't moved too differently since the last time I was replying. I feel like a big change is coming though, it's time for me to stop some habits and start some new ones.

This is so underground so whatever. I thought about you for the first time in about a year, Lisa. I doubt you even think about me or even care to.I mean it's been 3 years so there's no real reason for you to. I really have nothing more to add to it. I'm at peace with everything that happened during and after I wish things could have went better and we were on better terms, but I'm going to always have love for you.

I don't think I'll ever actually stop really loving you, I told this to my best friend, whom I almost ended up dating recently. She told me there's something about your first love that no one else can replace. And that the way I felt is natural and as long as I have love in my heart, the way I feel for you won't change.

I have no clue why I feel the need to express this now, but it feels good to. And I don't regret how I feel or anything that happened, minus all the times I was jerk of course.