Unforgettable

I had an interesting dream last night, things feel weird right now. I talked to some people about what has happened last week. Some people think I shouldn't be so forgiving. And or hung up on it. I understand moving on, but some of them just don't understand what it meant to me. It took me a while for me to understand myself.

When I did, that's when I finally felt okay with it ending. And that took me a year after we broke up to come to grips with. I've been doing better as the days go it seems. Some of my drive has returned a little bit. I still feel a little broken, and lost.I don't feel so negative about it anymore. I feel like I will make my way out of it, and have a chance for something more I guess.


Hopefully I can show that through my posts here. I don't want to read this and feel sad every time I do. It's about time I expressed myself more positively and tried more to be so. I know as long as I try I can be happy again. And find what I want and need in life. Sometimes the people you think are supposed to be that, aren't. It doesn't mean you won't find someone who is.


I hope one day I do. And I am happy for her happiness I hope this time she does things right. She deserves another chance to be happy after everything she has gone through.I'll always love her, but I know things won't work with us for numerous reasons. Even knowing all that I'd go back with her in a heartbeat. Funny thing is when I think of her the song Heartbeat by childish gambino is the song that comes to mind.
She will always be one of the most special people in my life though, one I will never forget.