I hate to go to bed at night without being entirely sleepy.My mind begins to wonder, and that's not always good. Since when my mind wanders I contemplate what is going on with me. And I end up depressed, even sometimes on the verge of crying. The more I read my own posts the more I feel like a failure at being a male with all of my emotions getting the best of me.
I'm not afraid to admit these things, I just hate that I go through them. I have a job interview tomorrow so that's great. But I am really dreading going to bed right now; Hugging my pillow to fall asleep is sad.And I'm tired of being so lonely.
I wish I wasn't so afraid to take a chance on other things like I'm not afraid to express myself on here, I dunno, whatever.
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