Today from the advice from a friend, I made an attempt at asking someone out, found out they were with someone so that was a failure, but I at least attempted to ask her. Although now I feel a bit stupid for putting so much effort forward and falling on my face. I took it with stride and moved on, I don't know if its my age that's making me worry about being alone, or I'm just worried in general that I'm never going to find someone because of me.

I don't think I can change who I am, and I don't open up to people very easily, which has hindered me in the past. Why the fuck is almost every post about my love life? which is funny because I don't have one, or much of a life either atm besides school and work.

God I feel pathetic right now. *slaps self* good night.