Is it ok to not have feelings anymore but,care for an ex? I find myself in a little bit of a bind, I decided to check her blog out today for the hell of it, thinking it be another post of her doing well and it wasn't. So I made a comment about it, which I think I probably shouldn't have. She was an important part in my life during a difficult time. My mother was very ill during the time I was seeing her, and she was really good at keeping my mind off of that.
I think we could be good friends,if she got over my in-sensitiveness,but I don't know if we should. Like, would feelings come back? I don't have any now, I'm fine with myself. I think it would be good for her to take a break from romance too. Its not my place but she went from a boyfriend she was with for a long time, to me to another guy and they all were in a short time from one another.
I understand why I still care about her, she gave me my first love. To be completely seriously honest, I don't think I would've ever fallen in love the way I was going if it weren't for her. Its not putting her up on this pedestal it's the simple fact I never felt that "free" to be myself around a girl before, every girl I had been with before her I wouldn't allow myself to be that open with and things would fizzle out.
I've changed since being with her, and my last ex I was just as ""free" with, although that would cause us to break up later.
The short reply is, I care about her, and hope she can be happy in whatever situation she's in. She was fun to be around because of her personality which is why I wish we were friends.
Sheesh, Do I ever shut up?
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