Wondering

Okay, I just rethought about how I got back with my girlfriend, we had a long talk about where we are in life, and where we wanna be,and how I have become very special to her and something positive in her life instead another one of her negatives.If she ever reads this, she might get a little pissed at me, but recently she confessed to me she had a drug problem in the past and it caused a rift in her relationship with her parents to this day (she doesn't talk to them).

She's not good making long term things work out, but suddenly she really wants to fix that by being with me, and making it work, she told me she was falling for me, I'm not quite there yet, I still have my shields up since the last time I fell in love (which also happened to be the first) I don't want it to end like that and me end up in another bubble of being stuck with a broken heart.

I really like her, and she's real fun to be around, the further this goes this time, the more I can see myself falling in love with her, also where I am in my life as far as my heart, a little part of it still and will always belong to my first love.That doesn't mean there's no part of it that will belong to her, but I'm fine with keeping things simple at the moment.

I didn't push her, but I want to try to help her if she's willing to have a relationship with her parents again, I know how important family is and you only have one mother and father.I'm really happy again it feels good to be in a positive place again the skies the limit, I realized that before I can love anyone again, fully, I need to love myself.

I think I finally do, Lisanna (Ya I know,I didn't plan to have the next girl I date to have a name close to my ex) thank you for reaching out and opening up to me, telling me about your struggles and insecurities I'm happy that we can try this relationship for real this time.