Missing the Communication

I wonder, if I'll ever talk to her again, the baggage from our relationship has left me, but I would like to talk to her just to see how she's been, and to try again at being her friend, because no matter how things ended and how I felt, I still enjoyed playing games and talking to her, she has a very calming and comforting vibe to her.

Is that asking for too much? Should I just leave her be? I'm not lingering or any of that, but I truly believe deep down that she is a wonderful person to share your time with.Maybe I need to just let things be, but its hard for me to do so, when I feel like I might be missing out on a great friend. If I didn't let my feelings and bitterness get in the way of a friendship before things might be different now.


If you read this Lisa,I'd really like to try this time to be a real friend to you, I'm losing ones I've known for years left and right.More than anything else we had, I just enjoyed talking to you and I wish we could do that again.


Maybe this is asking too much, if it is, I apologize for stepping passed where I should, but it would be fun to play a game or shoot the shits with you.

always something

well I'm in the process of moving and its already hard as it is in the situation I'm in but to top that off the stupid credit check people, seemed to have found an eviction file on my credit, which isnt even me but my father. The last week I've had to call lawyers district managers and regional managers to get this problem solved.

I've finally got a hold of someone from the credit company, and am waiting on papers to be sent to fix this problem, oh and I have to PAY for them to fix their fuck up, like really? oh well, I have to move and this has to be fixed for that.

Returning to form

Its been a while since I felt like this, where I feel silly and want to just enjoy myself and life. Even before my mom passed last year, I was in a dark place, and after taking a hard long look at myself and who I know I am and what I want to be, I told myself "enough" and decided to make this change.


It won't be fast or easy, but its what I need, first thing is I'm going to try to make my posts more upbeat then my wallowing or whining about something that didn't go my way, when I look back at some of the stuff I wrote here I want to punch myself in the face, but all things come and go, and happy silly funny,crazy me is back,for good.

Not Looking anymore

Things have gotten better I suppose, broke up with my girlfriend of 4 months because I felt like things werent going to move pass casual sex and light dating, I've decided I'm not going to look for love anymore and let things move as they need be, I have enough people in my life who love and care about me without trying to kill myself trying to find that right girl to settle down and have a family with.

It'll come someday,hopefully........

Life is ok, and is getting better.